JOURNEY OF THE HEART

JOURNEY OF THE HEART
As received by Gillian MacBeth-Louthan

Welcome into every place and every thought, and every energy that you stand at this very moment in time; for you are an intersection of all that you have ever been throughout time. Within the walls of your heart -- you entertain the past, the now, and the future. Within the walls of your heart resides all hope and dreams for the future. Within the walls of your heart you the embryo of all possible creation. You each stand at the gates of yourself, holding your breath, waiting for life to show you in which direction you are to walk, in which direction you are to love, in which direction you are to look. You all stand at these gates waiting for a signal from something of heaven, from something of earth, from something of life. Yet you still see not that all of the signs, the signals, the energies - reside within the compounds and confines of your own being.
You stand on the apex of who you knew yourself once to be and you are asked to leap to the next mountain top, to leap into a place of consciousness and understanding that you have not landed upon in eons. You are asked to go beyond your abilities to manifest, to go beyond your abilities to create, to go beyond your abilities to love. You are asked to surpass all that you have known yourself to be, to finally land within the sphere of knowledge that awaits you.
There are many levels of your light that you are about to embrace, as there are many new levels of your humanness that you have been afraid to embrace. Announce to yourself the receiving of all levels of love - whether it is love that has pained you in the past, love that is unrequited in the now, love that turns its head and walks away from you. Announce love to yourself, for the next level of your ascension and awakening can only be accessed through the human heart, through the love that you know as a human being. Look in your life - look at your past, your parents, your spouse, your children - and see how much you have loved them and how much you still have not embraced them fully.
In order for you to rise to this next level of ascension, of light, and enlightenment - you must do it through the loves of your past. Not the loves of your future, not the loves that are new and shiny - but the loves that seem somewhat tainted and shadowed from times gone by. During this holiday season you will be asked to walk back into your remembrance. To shuffle through and to pick through the remnants of the past to find the shininess of love that once was, to find the goodness within those that you did not like, did not love, and would rather not have been involved with. It is through this doorway of past loves that you will then walk into the newest of love that you will wear as a golden garment of light.
For all of you that sit within this sphere will walk into a higher love, but you must take several steps backward and you must pick up what you have dropped by the wayside so knowingly and so easily. Caress it, shine it up, and place it in your heart. For in the time of the eclipses, there will be a total eclipse of your human heart as you remember how you have gotten to this place of thinking that you now reside. There will be a time that you walk into your human heart and you will want to stay there in all aloneness. You will want to back away from those who reach their hands out as a she crab upon a sandy beach. You will go deep within the shell of self and lick the wounds of the past, of the injustices, of the hurts. Like all species of animal on earth - the salvia that you lick your wounds with - will be healing for you. It will be your own love and your own nurturing that you give to what your heart and soul so desire.
You have side-stepped as the great She crab all that has stood in front of you. You have side-stepped in truth - what your heart yearns to be. You have side-stepped in truth - where your heart yearns to be. You have side-stepped your future and you have lain comfortable in the quagmire of the now. It is this frequency of side-stepping that you must now walk straight into. In walking straight ahead - you will meet all levels of you. You will experience reflection after reflection after reflection as you go into the 'Hall of Mirrors' of who you have always been, who you are intending to be, and who the universe has scribed for you to become.
In this journey of the heart, you will be hesitant in moving forward. Most people of earth are afraid of love. They are afraid of the very thing that will set them free from the bounds and limitations of their earthly domain. They do not realize that love is the 'ladder of ascension' - it is Jacob's ladder, it is a ladder of Light, it is a stairway to heaven. In order to access this ladder of ascension you must always through your own heart and not through the heart of another. The heart of another will only lead you back to your own heart. No other heart will fulfill you as you need fulfilled. They can nurture you, they can polish you, they can buff you, and they can love you - but first you must receive what you have been given. You all stand on the seashores of the past and you look out to sea to see what you may see. And what do you see? -- you see all the hurts, the wounds, the injustices. How many of the blessings have you forgotten? How easily the darkness arises to your memory and how easily your human memory forgets the blessings, the grace, the good tidings that you have received and given to so many.
You are on the very porch of your next level of light. You must open the door and go in. And in there you will see your past. You will see everything that once hurt. You will see everything that brought a smile to your face. You will see a panoramic life review as you look at it all and say -- thank you for allowing me to be who I am. For every individual that crossed your life has contributed to the recipe of your soul, the ingredients of love that you hold. Be open to this doorway. Ask to receive in fullness higher levels of love. Ask the universe to show you how to love more, to show you how to receive love, and to show you how to radiate love.
You each hold such a large sphere of light. Every place you enter you change the vibration. Do it with a knowingness. Do it with love. When you find yourself in anger - immediately shift to love. Practice this over and over again in your day. For everything that makes you angry, is asking for your love. Each level of love that you walk into as a warrior will take you closer to an Ascension level of your own heart and into your higher light.
We are the Collective. We vibrate upon the morphogenetic grid that surrounds earth. We are within every thought through all time and all space. We gather around your energy fields as we gather around the earth. All truths that you seek are within your grasp. To access them you must 'believe with a knowing' and 'know it with believing'. The proof will come - but only after the pudding has been served and eaten. At this time we bow to your light, we bow to your hearts.